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TECTONIC QUAKES FROM THE PAST

(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

This past week, I was witness to

a rugged, self-reliant, beautiful woman,

successful artist, loving wife (etc. rich life resume ...)

Completely break down

into great bouts of sobbing,

deep weeping from an inner despair.

A current friend of hers was not finding any footing

and constantly sliding away from love,

when this lady's love was close enough to be felt seemingly everywhere.

This beautiful… Continue

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A PARTING WITH REMORSE

(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

A friend called me last night,

drowning in her mix of sadness and remorse.

An eighty three year old dear friend

of her now departed mom had died this afternoon

in her bed in the assisted living home.

My friend had been a devoted visitor and friend to this lady just passed.

My friend chose the path of biting her tongue

in the face of the chafing cynicism and wit

this now passed woman had nursed… Continue

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GETTING TO KNOW THE EXQUISITE

(c) 2009 Howard McQueen

Get it touch with the feeling
this inner knowing
at the center of your heart
that,

Being is something exquisite.

Re-partner and repatriate
so you may take up residence and fully manifest this life.

Everything else is just playing with shadows
listening to echoes, old habits,
nothing to do with naming and experiencing energetic Love.

~ ~ ~

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THE NURTURER'S DESPAIR

(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

The abyss of despair
You're already F'Ked.
Hope completely lost
then found in holding the
vulnerable other and consoling them.

Consoling, nurturing energies
practiced in-the-moment, on-demand,
always for someone else's welfare.

Make room for love
as it has come back home
to finally roost within you.

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CONTAINER, NOT CONTAINMENT

(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

We delight in playing in the light.
Come join me, finding some playfulness
in the mud and murkiness of the primitive swamp

The strength of our Container of fellowship and family
when built from the full spectrum of energies
brings a fullness of empowerment
an extra sturdiness of backbone
to stand still and face the unknowing.

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POSTER BOY, PINNED TO THE WALL

(c) 2009 Howard McQueen

I am sitting here on the hot seat

in the spotlight I have now transformed

into an interrogation room.

I squirm with my anxiety,

a circle full of people watching.

Quit F'King laughing and staring at this shrinking me.

Truthfully, I'm having a dickins of a time

connecting in this moment to my heart.

In my swollen pride, I am not finding the pathway

or handle to add wings to the heart-feltness of… Continue

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BREAKFASTING ON DEMONS

(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

Eat your demons at breakfast today

Else they shall just be 24-hour-a-day

Parasites,

snacking on your essence,

stealing your thunder,

strapping on their hi-jacking charges

to collapse your backbone.

Their destructive nature is insidious and relentless

as they work diligently to encourage you to cover over and encase your heart.

~ ~ ~

I've recently reconnected to my Buddhist acupuncturist. His recent… Continue

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THE RACE TO BE HUMAN?

(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

If we take a look a the state of the Human condition,

it certainly looks like we are caught up in some sort of race.

To cover over with distortions, deceptions,

cosmetic redirections

mechanistic reflections

our inner authenticity.

Expanded and condensed truths are waiting to be defined.

What a massive un-Education Project

is being readied

to restore spirit,

authenticity and

expressions of… Continue

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DARK JUGGERNAUT

(c) 2009 Howard McQueen

To shift and transform this seemingly dark juggernaut.

Here is how I am seeing it unfold

If there was not an equivalent

aliveness of Grace

and her attendants, forgiveness, compassion, ...

We would have long ago

wiped this earth clean

of all traces of

Humanity.

We have, at our disposal, our ancestral lineage,

a bounty of energies to pull from.

Know that you are not… Continue

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OUTSIDE OF IMPORTANCE

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VISCERAL DISCOMFORT

(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

Let me please have a double order

of visceral discomfort

accompanied with an in-depth understanding

by directly experiencing these energies at play.

And, slow it way down,

so I can feel and observe it emerge

and blossom in my imagination.

Ah, so this is one of the trigger points

that cranks up my propensity towards contraction.

Without this new found awareness,

I'd keep caving in to the… Continue

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EMERGENCE

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BAPTISM IN EACH DAY

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TAVERN OF ANNIHILATION

(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

So, you've walked into
the Tavern of Annihilation
but you're still talking
like you're holding out
for some concoction
or cocktail of salvation.

Take a long sip from the depth of the Silence
and let everything you know be taken away,
especially all that talk and chatter about spirituality.

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Faceless Love

(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

Hold the simplicity of realization
that everything external is but experience,
and let Grace take care of everything else.

In the presence of the faceless love,
we bow and are undone.

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RESTLESS LEPRECHAUNS

(c) 2009 Howard McQueen

The leprechauns, they need feeding

already again intoxicated from too much drinking.

Ready the light and divine music

known to stir open their hearts.

Those leprechauns, their mischievousness always ready to peak

their known proclivity toward mean-spiritedness and misdeed.

Lets make sure they are warmed by the music

to instead celebrate the heart and be bawdy

and outrageous with their fellowship.

Let… Continue

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THE GRIT OF STONE IN A KISS

© 2009 Howard McQueen

So, I’ve cast the first stone, so you say,

in the fold of the first anxious, emboldened kiss

planted upon your crumbing fortress wall

adorned with the graffiti of broken love fragments.

I see shades of your beauty-torment arise

As this boundary-shattering love-offering arrives

well ahead of your orders to open the welcoming gaits.

I am stone mason, chipping away with kiss,

I am landscaper, placing stones in… Continue

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INNER GROWTH & WHOLENESS

(c) 2009 Howard McQueen

Inner growth and healing

often follow a non-linear progression.

Facing self

provokes Grace

offering up the miracles

of gifts of insight

provoking further,

greater acts and leaps-of-faith.

There are rewards for those willing to live

in their unknowing,

feeling into the much greater wholeness.

Knowing that crisis brings forth

Necessity, the mother of inventive imagination,

detaching you… Continue

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THE VENOM IN POLITICAL ANALYSIS

(c) 2009 Howard McQueen

Do not fail to underestimate

the venomous lethargy

broadcast within the content of political analysis.

You are consuming a dark, brooding

wrapped in sophistication-tinged cynicism,

a cesspool of streaming, steaming defeatism.

This you willfully take and make

into a complete mockery of Love.

Are you not yet able to see

that you are suckling

on the teat of shock

bringing out the… Continue

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MASCULINE RAW SEXUAL LUST

© 2009 Howard McQueen

I am not speaking to the lighter,

delightful imaginative play with fantasy here.

I lend voice to the darker side of lust

that stimulates and provokes deep distrust.

The feelings of an impending,

imminent sense of forthcoming violation.

the sense of a stalking, dreadful danger.

There is clear brutality

contained and conveyed in the X-ray vision of lust.

One is left deeply unsettled by having

one’s… Continue

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