Asheville Sangha

Supporting Non-Duality and Awakening in Asheville and Beyond

(c) 2009 Howard McQueen

I am sitting here on the hot seat
in the spotlight I have now transformed
into an interrogation room.
I squirm with my anxiety,
a circle full of people watching.
Quit F'King laughing and staring at this shrinking me.

Truthfully, I'm having a dickins of a time
connecting in this moment to my heart.
In my swollen pride, I am not finding the pathway
or handle to add wings to the heart-feltness of "do-over".

The AaaaRRRrrrGGGG
of frustration is now
added to my squirming.
I feel pinned to the wall
fully exposed.
Today's poster boy,
unable to measure up,
caving in again to anxiety,
trying to cover it all up with some mix of humor-hostility.

And I sit in this
And I sit with this
Ow, this really hurts

Then humility arrives
softening the bruises from repeated fallings
and Heart reconnects
and the divine words spread their wings
and the messenger of Love unfolds.

Mmmmmm. The dance of pain and ecstasy is alive and arising within.

~ ~ ~

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