MASCULINE RAW SEXUAL LUST

© 2009 Howard McQueen

I am not speaking to the lighter,
delightful imaginative play with fantasy here.

I lend voice to the darker side of lust
that stimulates and provokes deep distrust.
The feelings of an impending,
imminent sense of forthcoming violation.
the sense of a stalking, dreadful danger.

There is clear brutality
contained and conveyed in the X-ray vision of lust.
One is left deeply unsettled by having
one’s innocence violated by this rape-vision.
This sends out all kinds of protect-all-gates alerts;
hide the children and the loving nourishers,
monsters are loose, prowling,
their hearts consumed with a vengeful hurt.

Lust lent fuel in the mind has a transfixing quality
It creates an internal tipping point,
advising the one boiling over with lust
of the imperative to take,
without asking,
to dominate and conquer
reaping the unjust reward,
without any consideration or compassion
for the consequences or outcomes of another.

The ancient masculine wound.
A deep need to slake by taking without asking
no flirting, no foreplay, consciousness set aside.
A taking to attempt to satiate the monstrous void inside.

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I am visibly haunted by the images that Hollywood creates on film. The recent Joan of Arc film, specifically the scene where, at the beginning of the film, Joan's older sister hides her from the invaders and pays the price. And then there is the scene, also in the beginning of Brave Heart, where William Wallace's sweetheart-to-be is executed by the reigning English captain. Lust mixed with deep injustices stimulates in people a need to take action to set things right. It also sets the stage for revenge to creep in and blossom.

To move the dark energetic stirred up from the above posting back into the light, have a look at a previous posting "PREDATOR & PRAY". This is intended to bring the topic back into the circle and provide this particular human darkness its respective blessing.

In the various group work I have been involved in over the years, acts coming out of extreme lust have left others deeply impacted. The way out of these craters involves working through the energies holding together extreme violation and distrust.

This posting addresses a very dark exploration of the human psyche, especially for those that have had the experience of being victimized by the stare of lust and/or have experienced rape.

I am interested in hearing from others that have been consumed by lust, either on the sending or receiving side. You may email howard@mcq.com. I will maintain confidentiality with regard to identity.

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