DARE WE BE DISTURBED

© 2010 Howard McQueen

Awareness in retreat,

into the mental un-realness,

seeking safe passage

outside of the here and now.

Our encounters with disturbances

where we experience confusion,

then distortion,

form the black hole

the place where we embrace our fear,

create the persisting infection,

blocking the passing through of what is no more

than a highly charged, energetic experience.

Elaborate defenses we manufacture:

fictions, fantasies and delusional scenarios,

played out over and over,

again and again,

Within the hyper-active,

concave and collapsing

inbreeding mind.

We become stuck in a faulty, repeating loop,

a subroutine of fear

needing the mastery of a program revision.

From this perspective,

our suffering represents the debug error messaging

that we ourselves have scripted.

All the feedback we need to clean our infection

is constantly feeding back and available to us.

All we need do is be still and see

what we have shaped and formed

and incorporated into our inner identity.

Our thoughts and beliefs,

especially those running in our depths,

form the blind spots where we allow fear

to lead us astray.

We have courage, compassion and love at our disposal,

these things we learn to actively engage

to return to ourselves the orphaned and abandoned

vital life force

covered over by our fear,

awaiting the ripening of conviction and

readiness to reclaim.