WHAT THE "i" MOST NEEDS TO SAY

Version 2.5

(C) 2010 Howard McQueen

Within this Wholeness that has been breathed outward,
there are a whole host of characters wanting expression.

There is you and there is me.
And, even when there is only the "me",
there is an "i" and an "I".

We are bound to become entangled and confused
in the perplexity of all these relationships

and the sheer need for expressiveness. 

I am remembering a golden rule:
In my anxiety and fear,
before I assess and begin to blame you,
let me remember to ask what the "i" inside of me
most needs to express.

This fragmented "i" is born of our domestication,
is infected with a man-made sense of separation.

If we fully identify
with this "i",
differences of opinion never resolve,
unresolved differences escalate into conflict and derision.
We call upon our intellect to stimulate fight and flight
and create vast perceptual gaps,

and then we find our relationships defined by these gulfs of separation.

By awakening within this perplexity,
we have the capability to encourage the "i" to say what it feels to be separate
and allow the space and silence for deeper truths to shine through.
It is in listening to this separation-speak
and not projecting it upon another
that we begin to cleanse our "i" of its sensations of separation
and all it's flight and fight reactive-ness,
this anxiety ginned up believing in and then acting out our projections of separation.

What is left are the deeper sensations signaling our belonging,

the warm desire for connection,

and so much more.

For some these signals may not be any stronger than a faint perfume,

for others, a near and ever-present intoxicant.

Whatever the strength or intensity,

be of a strong heart and bring forth your compassion and encouragement

when you hear the pain and confused signals carried in separation-speak.