Knocking on Heaven’s Door
It takes me ages to write this story down...every time I sit down and start to write my eyes just shut. A tiredness so deep put me almost asleep. I stand up and make myself some tea. I just feel a deep peace filling me with nothing.. no thoughts not even a "why this tiredness enters my being at certain moments"..I start to realize that the mind starts to lose its power and is not able to enter the present that strongly surrounds me with nothing. The mind start to give op on me there the nothingness is growing stronger with the day where it is filling me with unlimited space..were extension of presence is never ending. I don’t experience emotion or fear for the change that is happening..I just realize that I am writing what I am writing now with eyes wide open..the tiredness left me in peace “it puts the mind asleep and feel awake within. I sense a light so bright and look up and see myself surrounded by it. It is Heaven’s light shining her delight. I easely can look right into the brightness of her being..which I can not when looking at the sun. The light sets a path for me..her shape is changing from full to pathway and I start to walk following her being..knowing this is not just something but must be the stairway to heaven..which we normally walk as soon as we end the physical cycle in life.. but this is different.. I feel that it is not my call to return to the source.. it is something that needs to be said or done..anyway I just follow her light by walking an endless path where light is being..where silence IS..not even my own footsteps can be heard. A powerful silence is filling me with peace..the love of heaven is what I breathe. My being lost all sense for gravity..it is not longer me that is walking the path to heaven but just being in the most physical sense..is no longer following and do not even sense. While I am guided by light I hear a sound like someone is knocking on the door wanting to go inside..I look up and see a door of light and hear a voice..”please let me in..I can’t take it anymore..please hear my voice.. you have to help me life is a pain..how can I survive..if there is a God why do I live in poverty..and get ill..why are we in war..why is the World as it is". All the prayers of mankind were heard here just in front of Heaven’s door. Why does the silence remains instead of helping mankind to at least answering her questions and end all the suffer she experience as a physical being. The almighty remains in silence while she is able to sprinkle peace on Earth. Then all the voices went and nothingness was filling me with an awareness of what IS..a voice which is a voice without sound started to speak to me..“dear Margriet you just followed your heart by continue in what is given to you..you just became the love you are and is just that where the mind can’t hold on to you..where freedom of being takes place. This is Human heaven where all physical beings continue there way when they reach the point where you are now..many were here before you and many are just about to join. We do not communicate with words..we do not have answers to something we already are..but one question everyone will be asked when they arrive here at the turning point where ME becomes Being".
Then I felt someone was holding me softly as being one filling me with a gulf of gratitude and love..a beauty I never felt before and a voice whispers in my ear..”Margriet are you ready for Heaven? please do not answer but hear”..and it continued with a most heavenly voice..”When the mind gives up on you..your being is free of any kind and means that you fulfilled your human life experiencing the question and answer..believe and doubt..where it takes two to become one which is mind/body and being living duality as quality. You reached the end of this physical cycle living duality as quality. No it does not mean you die..you remain in who you are..you will be the physical being you are but free from any kind. So this is your tiredness telling you it is enough..you had enough and you are heard my dear. What will be your answer dear light”...”Well before I will be ready to answer I have one question only just for me to understand”...”ok I take your question”..”Why do all the prayers of mankind stay in front of Heaven’s door..why no one opens the door to them so mankind keep on knocking on the door receiving silence instead?"
"Hmm that’s the question which keeps mankind there were she is..she continue in her contradiction by asking something to “someone else” while the truth is what you are. This doorway to heaven where you all knock on is the door to who you are. Have a close look and see for yourself..the key is here you only have to turn it to open it..Turning the key to open the door is made for you to decide whether you want to enter and unite”.. “ok but what if I decide to go in but change my mind once being there”..”dear light that will never happen there you won’t even come near when the mind still active..you won’t even think of it for it to exist..what you really like to know is what happens when you do turn that key..when I ask you are you ready for heaven dear Margriet it means that when you do..you lose all identity to what you think you are..there is no attachment to whatsoever..all you are IS. You continue in the same physical body and shine as heavenly light. The “nothingness” is the timeless being that takes over from the restriction known as noise which is a low frequence all physical beings are in. Your mind reached her limit and soon she won’t be there at all..which means that the need to attachment “passes away” where light takes over to lead you through the I love you and gratitude for all that is. She is that little voice within who you are listening to now for quite some time. She is what you are..letting you experience your Heaven on Earth as a physical being enjoying the physical sense as Feeling..Taste and Touch..where healing is your source of life..where love extends her power for you to live her loving fire..so what is your answer dear friend”...and she went. My tea is cold..my story is told. I feel light and a sprinkle of delight is awaken me out of a dream that has last this long.