JOURNEYING INTO INTIMACY

© 2010 Howard McQueen

Don’t presume you can gently explore intimacy.

Intimacy will flat out overwhelm you,

exposing your hidden,

long incubated

fears.

A single word spoken

can draws open the flood gates,

drowning ourselves and those we love

intimately,

in our hidden reservoir

of waiting to be reconciled,

yet to be named

invited to be felt and received

human emotions.

Such are these avoided emotions we label "wounds",

stored in resistance to the unrestrained, unconditional heart.

Clenched closure, shutting down our aperture

for receiving all the gifts life brings to our threshold.

Intimacy transforms the hardened walls of defense

holding at bay the fear held in the human heart.

Walls become again

malleable,

translucent,

permeable

membranes

for the youthful vim and vigor of life to re-enter.

The heart opens, disgorging that which hurt and was hidden

in the hijacked intimacy of childhood.

In awakening,

we are invited to truly feel these hidden emotions,

to navigate and dance with these seemingly blocked demons living within.

As this intimate inward dance progresses,

we are gifted with the name

of these “I can’t handle it” emotional energies

and their energy, with a fullness of capabilities and capacities

are gifted back, returning to us.

Our personal stories,

seemingly etched deep in store grooves,

are seen merely as charged preferences

now rapidly dissolving into the freedom’s clarity.

Thus we come full circle,

face to face

with our authentic nature,

once crimped musical instruments,

now nimble dancers

Our judging and sentencing life dramatically lessens

Our manufacturing resistance to life shifts into decline

and more light enters this world,

as Love.