JEALOUSY & INSATABLE APPETITES

(Draft version 1.0)
(C) 2009 Howard McQueen

An insatiable appetite for what someone else seems to have.
Lack of generosity held in the prison of the inner me.
Shame, blame, victim, accusation.
We give such power to jealousy
the ultimate obsessiveness,
played out over-and-over again.

The animal-istic nature of the human Operating System,
thinking it must have that which is outside,
to nourish and fill-in the voiding sense of estrangement.
It becomes a stalking, a need to possess,
an urge to take by force,
to kick the shit out of one another.
Dense, subconscious reptilian brain survival strategies ..


This dark creature called the grimness,
held hostage abusing the name of pleasure,
buys our ticket to ride,
in perpetuity,
the Ferris Wheel of Agony.
Dominance, excluded mutuality, unilateral control
Badness coming at cha'.
Tough F-King luck.
Round and round you go, repeating this same stuck pattern on the wheel.
The pain body, agent of the grim reaper, coming to redirect your life force
towards anger, darkness.
Hard to break free from this creature,
so worshiped with excessive compulsive significance.

I don't want the power you offer me to judge your jealously.
I have no need for it.
You be the holder and keeper of this.
Me, I've had my fill of my own misery.

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This posting tracks the feelings of being stalked by an ancient malevolence. Know the early warning signs so that you can recognize its approach. Without without indulging it, return to the Beautifulness of the now. It is ancient brain, survival at any cost infrastructure programming. Take a few minutes and clear your own energetic field of the darkness that you may be feeling. At some future date, should these feelings arise, be hyper alert to your environment, in the event some actual menace is on the prowl. Then you can take right action and feel into your options for navigating safe passage with these reptilian energies.

Dedicated to my teacher, MR.