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Howard McQueen's Blog – December 2009 Archive (47)
WELCOMING 2010
Celebrating a bit more than twelve months of writings
(c) 2009 Howard McQueen
Is the external world going from bad to worse?
Many of us feel extremely stressed out living in this rapidly changing world. The vast majority of us feel our sense of financial security is slipping away. Many of us are also perplexed, if not deeply discouraged, in our efforts to engage in and sustain intimacy with a significant… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 31, 2009 at 5:30pm — No Comments
INNER SURRENDER IS ...
Surrender is an integral part of the inner journey of uncovering authenticity.
Surrender is learning to consciously discern and choose what needs to be released, in order for something new to grow.
The terms and conditions connected to inner surrender are love, truth and integrity.
Surrender releases aspects of you that you have judged insufficient and/or guilty. Surrender releases the you held prisoner, pardons your sins,… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 31, 2009 at 4:30pm — No Comments
DETOURS INTO SECURITY
So many of my “big life” decisions
were formed around servicing
my
INSECURITIES
Please load and run the program
“Lets get Married”
It is playing on every jukebox,
all over the airwaves
and surprisingly even in the churches.
Shezzzam!
I am in the process of wiping clean
the infrastructure queue,
the stack of inauthentic programming
RUNNING… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 29, 2009 at 2:30pm — No Comments
EVOLUTION’S MOMENTUM
© 2009 Howard McQueen
To be vulnerable
is to be yielding,
unprovoked
unwilling to interfere (enter the fear of or for another).
To not take the bait,
fail to validate,
not even mimic
the mainstream
habitual machismos:
- putting on armor or weaponry
- hardening the heart
- becoming distant from our natural vulnerabilities
Some may call this dispassionate or disengaged,
hurl… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 29, 2009 at 2:00pm — No Comments
APPRECIATING A LOVE BEYOND THE PERSONAL
© 2009 Howard McQueen
YIN, dipping deeply into devotion to spirit, recites the lyrics[1]
You are the bravest man I’ve ever met
You unreluctant at treacherous ledge
You are the sexiest man I’ve ever been with
You, never hotter than with armor spent
When you do what you do to provide
How you land in the soft as you fortify
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 28, 2009 at 11:00am — No Comments
BLESSING FOR A NURSE
Hello new and soon-to-be dear friend,
I was rapidly thumbing through the book of blessings, thinking I would take one to the family Christmas dinner. As chance would have it, the pages stopped on the blessings for a Nurse. Then, I remembered you were a hospice nurse, and then I knew why the page stopped on this blessing.
I got to know the entire rotation of… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 27, 2009 at 6:30pm — No Comments
HOW AN ADEPT TEACHER “SHOOK MY WORLD”
Ah, to be with an adept, present teacher. Being personally present and face-to-face, over long-stints of time with an adept, in an intimate setting, sinks into your bones and cellular structures. There is a contagious effect that is set in motion. When I write in my poetry about the great viral Love, this is a direct experience from being in group facilitated by an Adept teacher.
An adept can help you see your hiding places, and can slow down the… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 27, 2009 at 11:00am — 1 Comment
THE GAUNTLET OF FEAR
Draft Version 1.0 – December 27 2009
© 2009 Howard McQueen
YIN speaks up, breaking the silence and says
Everyday I fight my insecurities ... my fears of not having enough - of not being enough. Savings dwindle and I cower inward toward places that avoid and freeze all action and ability to create. Wish I could just say F_CK-IT and chance losing it all!!!!!
And YANG stirs and gently… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 27, 2009 at 10:00am — 1 Comment
THE FIFTH AGREEMENT
A Toltec Wisdom Book
Don Miguel Ruiz and Don Jose Ruiz
Several excerpted quotes from this fine, easy to read book
The mastery of awareness is to be aware of our own creation, to be aware that it’s [what we are creating from moment to moment] alive.
Every one of our beliefs, from a minimal… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 27, 2009 at 9:30am — No Comments
LETTING GO OF ALL INTERMEDIARY SYMBOLS
© 2009 Howard McQueen
If we are not seeing and feeling
the One Presence everywhere,
then we are out of focus,
our perspective has collapsed,
we are in the throes of separation,
we are worshiping the ten thousand
self-limiting beliefs -- using our words
as symbols and sentences
to wall ourselves in,
insulating and separating ourselves from life.
The infant is wide… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 25, 2009 at 10:00am — 1 Comment
PERPETUAL SABBATICAL, RETIREMENT, SURRENDER?
I recently informed my mother that I had retired. This seemed to have brought her some relief, as the life I live is considerably more unstructured than anything she can imagine.
In actuality, I consider myself on perpetual sabbatical, in a state of opening to learning about myself, from the inside out, as well as from my relationships with all things external.
I decided that it was easier for my mom if I just used the word… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 23, 2009 at 10:00pm — 1 Comment
FORGIVENESS
From a place of radical responsibility, the below quote on forgiveness is pretty illuminating:
"Forgiveness is really self-forgiveness. If the world is simply a reflection of your own mind, if all blame and judgement are projections of your own guilt and self-attack, then forgiveness of others releases both the others and the subconscious guilt within you. Guilt is really a form of arrogance… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 21, 2009 at 4:11pm — 1 Comment
THE FEVER AND DELIRIUM FROM THE ANCIENT VIRUS
The old habits linger, hoping to again feed and snack.
The false fellowship held in these ancient, resurrected addictions,
their remains, the occasional energetic
tug and pull,
the ever-cajoling,
sweet,
intoxicating whispers,
not fully powered down yet,
still running,
within my own operating system
I recall the wisdom teaching contained in the story of Odysseus and the Sirens
The… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 21, 2009 at 2:30pm — No Comments
THE ABUNDANCE OF SHARED BEING-NESS
To be at peace and able to enter play and be playful.
To have been depressed and stressed
and to have pierced through all this
makes for such an amazing journey.
It is a beautiful thing to uncover yourself
and trust in what is buried deepest within.
It is a treasure, a trusting, an allowing,
a resting in a love
that stops the mind,
for there is nothing to compare.
It is our true nature,
unbound from… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 21, 2009 at 7:30am — No Comments
THE HITCHHIKERS GUIDE: EARTH & HUMANITY
The Grand Galactic Curator's notes on
why you might want to pay a visit to earth / humanity:
Six.five billion canvasses,
a small, rare, loosely held together,
often conflicted
life… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 20, 2009 at 6:30pm — No Comments
THE HIGH BAR OF EXPECTATION
I’ve seen it rise up in myself
and in many others, countless times,
this raising of the high bar of expectation,
so high
even a great Olympian pole-vaulter
could not begin to elevate and ascend.
Overcome with feelings of deep neediness,
sizzling inside, like a bead of water
dropped on a white hot frying pan,
our expectations rise.
We prepare all our tricks and manipulations,
ready to hook the… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 19, 2009 at 6:36pm — No Comments
THE EXPRESSIVENESS OF HUMAN CLAY
To label yourself, or anyone broken,
or permanently damaged goods,
is to subscribe to the notion
that a yet to be completed,
rare piece of living art
is something other than Creation's utterly
magnificent work-in-process.
Human-ness, the eternally malleable
and grand expressiveness of clay [1]
constantly being shaped and animated
through the invisible hands
of the grand force of… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 19, 2009 at 5:30pm — No Comments
THE BEAUTY IN NOT DOING
Very few things in the external world
really need tending to.
So much motion and commotion
and momentum already underway.
When you let your inner self
really wind down,
old habits and their effortings
tend to drop away.
And people connected to these effortings
drift along and on their own way.
What is left in the quietude and silence,
are the raw materials and environment
for new… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 19, 2009 at 9:30am — No Comments
THE WIN-WIN OF INTEGRITY
I had dinner with an acquaintance in Savannah in November. .
I had been listening to their stories now and then, over a week or two.
The stories of their youth included passion and independence,
running small businesses and, on the side,
always suckering others in on bets – that they always won.
It seems like these past ten years that life has been in a sort of reversal,
that employees began taking my acquaintance for a… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 19, 2009 at 7:30am — No Comments
COLLAPSING THE GREAT DIVIDE
(C) 2009 Howard McQueen
I AM the indwelling being.
To meet you is to meet me,
the same One,
everything alive,
radiating and reflecting
the indwelling being-ness.
Being-ness has chosen again to awaken,
to take up a temporary home,
to assume perspective in organic
form and function,
flesh and bone.
There is no why,
there is but… Continue
Added by Howard McQueen on December 18, 2009 at 9:30am — No Comments
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