(c) 2009 Howard McQueen
Inner growth and healing
often follow a non-linear progression.
Facing self
provokes Grace
offering up the miracles
of gifts of insight
provoking further,
greater acts and leaps-of-faith.
There are rewards for those willing to live
in their unknowing,
feeling into the much greater wholeness.
Knowing that crisis brings forth
Necessity, the mother of inventive imagination,
detaching you…
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Do not fail to underestimate
the venomous lethargy
broadcast within the content of political analysis.
You are consuming a dark, brooding
wrapped in sophistication-tinged cynicism,
a cesspool of streaming, steaming defeatism.
This you willfully take and make
into a complete mockery of Love.
Are you not yet able to see
that you are suckling
on the teat of shock
bringing out the…
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I am not speaking to the lighter,
delightful imaginative play with fantasy here.
I lend voice to the darker side of lust
that stimulates and provokes deep distrust.
The feelings of an impending,
imminent sense of forthcoming violation.
the sense of a stalking, dreadful danger.
There is clear brutality
contained and conveyed in the X-ray vision of lust.
One is left deeply unsettled by having
one’s…
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Hello Dear Ones,
This is a follow-up to a previous posting, so
follow this link back to the original source, and then return to that which is most current.
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This concept of transcending I am revisiting and revising
reminds me be be vigilant of anything escapist.
By that, I mean that the work is to see
all of human behavior
in…
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You all are my extended family
we root for each other
through all the difficulties.
We bring to our sacred gatherings
an expanding ability to be present
and to share our felt sense of
SOLIDARITY.
Extending Family
I am born into biological family
my work on this earth: redefine and extend family
We are Fam-i-ly
A practiced way of being together
to explore and learn about depth of…
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Hey, look at me.
I've been doing the "best of"
what dis-empowered people do.
Shrunken, constricted, disconnected, withdrawn
an incapacitating mistrust
of self.
So, I'm playing things
close-to-the-vest
ever-so-safe
wallowing onward
in the shadows
amidst the echoes
old habits that interrupt and infiltrate
my authenticity.
And here I am again
collapsing again
into my…
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Way back when in my life
I remember these novel experiences.
They were full of exploration, newness,
exhilaration and
fun.
These experiences, spooled forward,
taken up again as habit,
then over attended to and abused
no longer yield their former fun.
Instead what is created is grim persistent diminishment.
If I see myself as an ocean going vessel,
I've sprung leaks under the water…
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I wonder how I might appear
in my minds expectation
of what someone else
might be thinking about me.
Mirror mirror on the wall
Show me a picture, any channel at all.
I'm not just small,
I've evaporated
Turned the mental
disintegrator ray gun
upon myself
and scattered myself
amongst the mists-of-illusion.
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In speaking this Potential in you,
you up-the-ante
for everyone else.
In embodying this Potential in you,
you bring into the visible spectrum,
vital life-giving energy for the whole Human Family.
Blessed be your arriving ...
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So, you see yourself as just the minor character
in this meta-dance.
Place your attention right [
... ~ HERE ~ ...] to accept the Witnessing Role,
the powerful 360 degree vision.
See the red-eyed, angry,
in-heat male water buffalo,
singling you out,
to step out
of the mainstream,
the numbing,
behave-yourself
regime of beliefs.
Join the resistance,
give yourself to the revolution…
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Am I desirable or worthy enough?
I cannot resolve an explicit "Yes".
I suddenly feel the hot streak of need,
all stuck and splayed out on the Fence-of-Maybe.
Someone please indicate, even donate a "Yes",
to pull me out of my unknowing misery.
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Being in this world
Lessening the projection
of our past pain and suffering
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Go tell it to the mountain
Go wash yourself in its stream
Let all your worries drop beside you
May you find your stride in solitude
and a love in life named Serenity.
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Do we really have any control what-so-ever
in what we convey in word and intent
when it lands on another?
You can plant the sweetest of kiss
on the walking dead
and in that moment
they will not stir.
You can put your arm around
someone just gazing at you.
And should they not be ready,
be offered a healthy dose of rejection.
You can write yourself and another
into some future…
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My shadow energy
is needing to feed
on someone else's
energetic image of me.
Will I be able
to hold my integrity?
or
will I succumb again
to constructing my life
on this ever-slippery
muddled slope.
I close my eyes
and gently succumb to
slip-sliding back into
the black pit of misery.
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Misery and despair, two companion energies that arise and intertwine…
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(Draft version 1.0)
(C) 2009 Howard McQueen
An insatiable appetite for what someone else seems to have.
Lack of generosity held in the prison of the inner me.
Shame, blame, victim, accusation.
We give such power to jealousy
the ultimate obsessiveness,
played out over-and-over again.
The animal-istic nature of the human Operating System,
thinking it must have that which is outside,
to nourish and fill-in the voiding sense of…
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(Day One in uptown Sedona)
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I am staying this week in Sedona, AZ, in a private house, in my own guest suite.
This is an incredibly sweet setup and at half the price of the cheapest hotel in or around town, I feel blessed.
As I begin this my first morning here, I have just entered the kitchen and bumped into the owner and my host, Ms. M. We talked just a bit and then she rummaged for a moment to respond to my request to link into the house…
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Follow the tracks of truth
up to, then follow them into the rabbit hole,
the non-linear place
where your footprints in the sand are erased
And off we go,
trekking into the mind's constructs
made blind and oblivious by our smoke screen
our crud burning as a crude torch oil,
illuminating our walls,
inscribed with drawings, symbols and petroglyphs,
depicting our stories of suffering in…
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(ongoing oozing from Sedona)
(c) 2009 Howard McQueen
I gaze into your eyes
and my worldly desires
flicker alive in the firelight,
and my shadow doth hide no more.
The implied possibilities
the unfolding of the new and unknown,
a new place, perhaps fragile and fertile enough
for some manifestation of Love to root.
In this sacred spaciousness
we summon the wisdom
to rest patiently
feeling deeply into our…
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There are so many love stories
in the queue
readied for awakening this world.
Prepare yourself!
Love in new and unexpected combinations,
true to your deepest imagination,
Like a building storm front
is headin' your way.
Love could be manifest big as a freight train,
or veiled in the subtlety of rejection
and a push-back,
needing to be setup in the truth
of the cleaning-it-all-up…
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(the gurgling conversation with Well in Sedona, AZ)
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... Me first
Look at Me
Poor me
ya de ya de yaaa daaaa ...
Everything comprising this "me"
is so fleeting, so very temp-o-rar-Y
The yen and yang of internalized contraries:
- coming and going
- winning and losing
- gaining and giving up
- stockpiling and seeing forms blight and rot
- ...
So many invitations to lay…
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