June 2012 Blog Posts (21)

Unfinished Business



When she came home she was still holding the envelope to her heart.. “Unfinished Business” was waiting there to be solved..playing hide and seek for all these years became a part of her daily state of restlessness never leaving her in peace. She sat down and put the envelope I gave her on the big table in front of her.."Dear one I want you to write down your unfinished business" was echoing through her head when she was reading the…

Surrounded by Silence



I woke up with the echoing sound of his magical voice repeating...”Shall we dance”. Days passed by and his voice still there..then the music starts to play the long lost love song where we shared the last dance. 

The room was filled with a heavenly light and I could feel the loving fire from that last moment before I went..a feeling that isn’t really a feeling but so profound that I started to see the picture I lived where I…

Inspired by a breakfast meeting with Dan Emmons at Margeurite's Cafe; Dunedin, Florida

© 2012 Howard McQueen

Not escape from,

or eradicate,

or divorce ourselves from.

To co-exist with

the fear,

the urge to control,

the need to confine through defining;

to encourage the subtle to emerge

and achieve expression - to be birthed into this world.

To co-operate with

rather than resist

the…

Inspired by a breakfast meeting with Dan Emmons at Margeurite's Cafe; Dunedin, Florida

© 2012 Howard McQueen

Not escape from,

or eradicate,

or divorce ourselves from.

To co-exist with

the fear,

the urge to control,

the need to confine through defining;

to encourage the subtle to emerge

and achieve expression - to be birthed into this world.

To co-operate with

rather than resist

the…

Shall we Dance



A peaceful state of being made that I couldn’t sleep that night...I left the window open where a warm summer breeze touched my skin. Just the peaceful silence of the night.. specially here at the coast of New Land no sound is found. 

I just enjoy the peacefulness that surrounds me..filling me with Joy..I couldn’t resist to smile.

A full state of bliss touched by the summer breeze..filling the room with sweet surrender..then it…

Now we are Free



..."Now we are Free..wake up my beautiful Angel..wake up..the shadow left the Earth for us to shine the love we are..open your eyes my dear and feel the freedom you breathe". With the echoing sound in my head I sit straightup like I woke up out of a lifetime sleep. The voice was crystal clear...“breathe the freedom you are..just breathe” ..then a strange feeling came when I started to breathe conscious of the echoing sound of freedom.…

New Land



Days passing by and I still writing my story down with the pen of light the beautiful Angel gave to me. The pages start to fill the emptiness of my life and I wonder what the story will look like..when will the text appear to me so that I can read what comes to me..and then he appeared to me as the beautiful man with long blond hair absorbing me with his bright blue eyes and said: ”soon my dear it will appear..it is the end of the darkest…

Fields of Joy



Waking up in my holiday home near to the coast of New Land a light is shining through the window side filling the room with an heavenly smell of sweet red roses. When I sit up and put my feet on the floor..I notice that where I look all rose petals are covering the floor and feel the softness of the rose petals under my feet. The wooden floor is covert with sweet surrender..is that what I can’t remember..only the smell can tell its tale…

Hungry Eyes



 I look through the window of a pub in town and see myself inside..it is dark and the bar is full of happy people..I hear the voices but not what they say. The person behind the bar is talking to me and then I notice a presence next to me like eyes are absorbing me. 

Without looking to the left there where I feel the presence is looking at me I see that it is a man..I can picture him quite well if I want. When I look at the presence…

Angel of Love

...and so it happened..one day after writing my story down

I met the Angel of Love..the sign of red roses and Japanese tea..music from heart to heart found its new start. The story I wrote reminded me of the sign that would made me recognize the Angel of Love in the physical sense..a long lost friend where we unite again..where he isn’t aware of this share but that the attraction is there. He is the one that gives me light..speaks his beauty to me..wants to say…

Extend your power not fear



After I was just about to give up on the endless circle where everything seems to stop..where I feel that life is given up on me. I see myself with my wishes of light somewhere far away not been seen like I do not exist for the outside world. I am just about to lose it all..this lifetime I worked for future slips in “no time” through my fingers like time is turning against me. With my back against the wall not wanting to…

Mindless Being



I wake up in a state of lightness..being sprinkled with a heavenly delight filling me with unlimited space...hm something is different here..the tiredness I was facing for a long time is not there anymore..I feel awake and see the brightness of all that surrounds me. This empty space where something always seem to remind me of the loneliness deep inside is filled with joy and laughter..like a newborn being exited by the new world…

© 2012 Howard McQueen  

 

Today I am making an agreement and a vow:  

 

I release myself, in perpetuity,

from any further involvement in my own,

as well as other’s blame-shame games.

 

Blame-shame games 

are loose-loose, 

full of subterfuge, 

failures to bring 

into illumination 

the lurking pain, 

fear and confusion 

underpinning our…

When Nothing Appears to You



When nothing appears to you is what just happend to me...after nothingness was filling me with sweet surrender I felt tired and couldn't keep my eyes open. I went back to bed even it was in the early afternoon I just had to go to have some sleep. Three hours later I woke up with the same tiredness as before I went to bed. I was just lying with my eyes closed waiting for any thought to come but nothing came. Nothing appeared…

Attract the Love You Are 

I wake up out of a dream and feel a wonderful silence surrounding me with peace as I am still in the dream I just woke up from. I don’t feel my body touching the bed even when I sit up and strech my arms out in front of me..all I feel is light and fills me with a heavenly delight. A new experience of awakening start to become a conscious feeling..not knowing or it still a dream I touch my arm to see it is the awakened me. I feel my hand…

EGO the Center of All

 I am looking out of my window and see people passing by. I look up and see the sky..another beautiful day is on it’s way. I feel the sunshine on my face and feel a peaceful silence that takes me to a state of happy being. With a smile on my face I enjoy the morning sun till someone was knocking on my door. Without wondering who it would be I said: “please come in the door is open”..and someone just walked in and said: ”hello I was…

Author of my Life...many days are passing by while I writing my story down...not knowing what it will become. When the weeks go by I start to see a structure of something that has always made me wonder why..a wonder that kept me busy for quite some time is now appearing in front of me..writing the wonder down like a picture I could not see slowly start to shine her light till I can see her color picturing her story for me to read. Slowly I start to understand…

What we Give is what we Live. We live the love we are as fully awareness. We are surrounded by that as an collective being expressing the peace that dwells within..where innovation will find it’s unlimited space created by the love we are..provide us all needs and wants in life just by extending the love we are. All creation of mother nature is in perfect harmony..and so are we! We must realize that what we give is what we are. As an individual creation we…